Bad Day.

Today started off really badly. Woke up feeling totally stoned and empty. Havent felt like that in a while cos I've been happy. It's one of those days where you just feel totally insecure about everything. Questioning and doubting and thinking too much is so inevitable lately. I suddenly feel this foreboding fear of losing you. Why?

Fake plastic smile.

It's time I get used to not being with you.
Im too used to you for our good.

It's not that I dont understand,
I hate it when you doubt that I do.
Would you want me to fake a smile for you ?
Understanding does not mean Im happy and everything's perfect..
Understanding shows that I dont blame you for anything and I'm not upset with you;
Im human, I just feel disappointed because something I was looking forward to came to nought.
Cant YOU understand?